Working out for YOU.

Hey guys. Long time, no see.

I know what some of you may be thinking... And I don't fucking care. I was working really hard at something and I was getting amazing results. I looked good, I ate well, and the gym was my home. And that was the problem. Well, part of the problem.

I haven't worked out in almost 5 months and everything that I've worked so hard for is almost gone. My abs, all of it. But I don't regret a single day of not working out in almost a half a year. I needed it and I needed this time for ME. It had been so long that I actually let myself be selfish. So that's exactly what I did. I went back home to Massachusetts and spent time with family and some of my best friends. I worked a lot, I drank a lot, and I ate a lot. I dug my bare feet into the ground and I got back to my roots. I built a better relationship with my kick ass brother and I spent more time with my grandparents than I had in a very long time.

All the while not working out a single fucking day. And it was awesome.

Rather than burying my hopelessness deep down and taking it out at the gym, I was living my fucking life. I refuse to feel guilty about taking time off because you know why? Life happens. Shit happens. You deal with it, and you move on. At the end of the day, we are all simply human.

And now I finally feel ready to head back to the gym, fully equipped with my bitchface. Now I feel ready to go back, but for the right reasons.

I love my body now.
And I'll love my body later.

And you, yeah you, stop being so hard on yourself. If you fall down 7 times but get up 8, that my friend is success.